I've been a little down about my lack of employment. Last night I went back to my alma mater to watch the concert choir perform their sacred concert. It was awesome. Watching that and talking to my old choir director made me heart ache. I miss teaching so so much. I've been feeling really down about not working. I'm signed up to substitute teach in 13 school districts and I've only worked 2 half days and 2 whole days since school started in August. I've applied to all the stores in the mall and Meijers and I can't even get an interview for a minimum wage job. I still have 17k in students loans to pay back and I can't get a job. The plan is to start my masters (which I have to get in order to keep my teaching license) in Speech Pathology, but the program doesn't start until Jan 2011. So I'm in a holding pattern indefinately - at least until this summer when schools start hiring again. I feel so whiney and I know I should be grateful Devin has a job and we can use our savings to cover some of our bills. Devin and I talked about moving to a bigger city an hour away that would still be drivable to his job, but decided against it. We can't justify paying double the rent for "maybe more subbing" or a part time minimum wage job. We are moving in the summer anyway - not sure where yet, even if Devin has to keep the job he has now, we will be moving. I know things will get better, because they can't get much worse. Halloween is over and I know Thanksgiving is coming up but we're really looking forward to Christmas. It is our favorite season, I've even started listening to Christmas songs on my ipod. I'm a dork I know : )
Dear God,
Let me lean on you in our time of need. I know that there are many people in more dire circumstances than I am. Help me keep my needs in perspective during trying times. I know you will provide for all of our needs, physical and spiritual. Lord stay with me and help me to see the positive in all situations.
Amen
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